Mirrors - you can look and see only what you want to see, or sometimes, when you are not expecting it, you just really see. I see myself. I see myself in a bigger size body than I want, bigger than it was. I see myself in other people. Today I saw other people with problems like mine. People with more experience, strength, and hope than I have today. People I might learn from if I can just calm down and listen.
I see myself in my family. Good, bad, it's all there. I can't be critical it's all me.
I see myself leaving. Leaving a place I don't want to be, not listening any more when it's just too much, leaving and saying I just can't do this anymore and walking away.
Now comes the hard part - I need to stay away.
Quitting is easy. I've done it hundreds of times. It's staying stopped - that's the real trick.
